I can’t believe it’s been 4 years since I’ve earned that zipper on my chest. 4 years since my very first Open Heart Surgery. It’s absolutely mind blowing to think it was only 4 years ago as some days it seems like yesterday and others seem like decades ago. And not to mention having had a another full blown open heart in between those 4 years.
Anniversary dates are extremely important. They help remember the good and bad times of that significant day. They help you move forward and set goals to achieve things you never thought you could attain.
Once again, God know his plans for us. Each one of us. I have chosen in the last 4 years to ignore his plan and close doors that were literally in my face. But, like anything, life is full of suffering, mistakes, meeting new people, learning and loving and that’s exactly what the last 4 years have been for me.
This Tuesday, I get to begin a whole new chapter in my life. One that I wasn’t sure I’d ever be able to do. In the last month, my life and health has been filled with a lot of unknowns. One thing I know is that my health will always be filled with unknowns. That’s part of accepting the disease and not letting it dictate your life and desires.
I will be starting my Master’s in Education focusing on Pre-K-4th grade and I couldn’t be more at peace and excited to actually call something my own! I am not comprising my health and get to work with children and families and love them in a way that God has shown me how to love. I couldn’t be more grateful. If it was all taken away tomorrow, I would still be grateful enough that I was able to know how it felt to have a peaceful heart. It’s a beautiful thing. I pray that everyone puts their hands into God’s hands and he shows them the same peace because it’s something so special and beautiful.
Today, August 28 will always be a day that brings so many emotions for me. But, it’s a day that has brought more peace, understanding, new beginnings, gratitude and a love I never knew existed.
August 28 is also the feast day of such a profound saint, St. Augustine and couldn’t be more of a perfect day to share my 1st Open Heart Surgery with.
I will leave you with this quote that fits perfectly for this day and for all those who struggle with lifelong health problems.
“Let us understand that God is a physician and that suffering is a medicine for salvation, not a punishment for damnation”. -St. Augustine